I know I said I have I've gotten over it.

But I think some part of me will never get over it.

I don't know why but "When there was me and you" suddenly popped into my head and decided to stay.



It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe
That miracles could happen?
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

...

But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
...

...
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes upon a star
They don't come true

...


I left out the parts which didn't really apply (this is some mushy love song after all) -- they are denoted by ellipses.

Anyway. I thought it was really how I felt. Dramatic, and cliche, but true.

And I don't know how to face you anymore anyway. Not without having to fake everything I say or do.

And I'm tired of having to pretend I'm happy!

3:00 PM
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I know I said I wouldn't come back... But I was just reading old posts way back from 2008 Sec 1...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Today was first footdrill session for Sec 1s. Thank goodness the seniors didn't have to stay back. I would have been mortified :P To sum it all up, it was tiring. Sigh.

Anyway, we were all freaked out. I think the arm lock and everything wasn't so bad, but then the point the toes, ninety degrees thing was difficult!!! Ahh. Gloria kept telling me not to horsekick. AHHH. Why can't I do it right? My head is already bursting with information and we only learn a BIT! OMG. I am so dead.

I wish I could do better :P

Hazel

Makes me want to cry.
How could I have been so naive then?

Did I know at that point what would happen in 2010? Did I know I would be disappointed?

"I wish I could do better :P"

how true the phrase is, and how many times it reverberated in my head just weeks ago.

9:46 PM
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