Over-rated.

Fatigue.

Weariness.

It's always the same feeling after something exhilarating. Nothing actually feels happy and good after a while. I don't think such a thing is possible. And then, again.

The smiles, which gradually grow less and less frequent, which make the face hurt more and more toward the end.

Toward the end, the fatigue and weariness... of the same thing happening each and every time, is nauseating. It overwhelms the initial feeling of happiness and makes one wonder if it was really happiness to begin with.

Or simply just the feeling of joy impressed upon oneself by the others surrounding oneself.

I thought perhaps, maybe, just for once, you could put aside your aloofness and try again. But it simply turns out that I was wrong again.

8:16 PM
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It's always that feeling of something, someone leaving.

Can it be so fast that the sec 4s are leaving already? It seems like yesterday when I first stepped into the band room, first learned about the euphonium.

Can it be that time passes so quickly?

It's rather startling, the fact that in less than three days, the sec 4s will be leaving, and ultimately, batch 11 takes over as top batch.

I'm not even sure I'm up to the challenge.

It seems like yesterday we were just insignificant sec 1s, gossiping, chatting after band over how many notes we managed to play in Turandot. It seems like yesterday when we were sitting in RB shrieking over drama serials.

It seems so far away, yet so close. Some memories fade, but they leave an inkling of what they once were in your head.

That's what I'm afraid of. Those faded memories tug at your head, but it seems impossible to actually rein them in, because they are just-- memories. Figments of the mind.

Why are endings always so nostalgic, and yet necessary for new beginnings?

9:44 PM
☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆★ hazel ★☆

HELLO ERNIE!!!! I JUST TOLD YOU MY URL SO YOU ARE PROBABLY READING THIS NOW!~!!

I am taking this opportunity to steal you away from Minyi/Laiza. Ain't that fun?? ^^

Remember those days in Sec 1 when you were my "one true love"? :p

8:59 PM
☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆★ hazel ★☆

How in the blasted world did Minyi find my blog?!

I mean, I realize she could be reading this, but =.= I mean, what are the odds of her coming back to read this?

Hahahahah Aliza's sicko Chinese Romance Novel... btw Minyi (if you ever read this) your expressions when I "innocently" ask you what the Chinese phrase means are rather epic. :p Not that I don't understand what they are doing hahaha... Most of the time I got it, but I wanted to see your expression LOLLLLL ^^ And excuse me, you didn't have to inform me of you knowing my blog in front of Sussan okay! XD

But enough about the STONE-CARVED, HARD AS ROCK, HEARTLESS twit (but still chio like anything). (See if you are reading this you probably want to punch me ^^)

Haha just a short post... I have to go study now O______O

7:30 PM
☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆★ hazel ★☆

Ｉ＇ｍ　ｔｒｙｉｎｇ　ｄｅｓｐｅｒａｔｅｌｙ　ｔｏ　ｄｏ　Ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ　ＰＴ　ｎｏｗ．　Ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｗｏｒｋｉｎｇ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈ，　Ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ａｂｓｏｌｕｔｅｌｙ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｗｒｉｔｅ　ａｔ　ａｌｌ．

Ｔｏｍｏｒｒｏｗ　Ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｔａｋｅ　ｂｕｓ　ｔｏ　ｓｃｈｏｏｌ　ｘ．ｘ　Ｔｈｅ　ｈｏｒｒｏｒ．　Ｉ have to wake up at 5 so today I have to sleep super early or something. Gahh

8:42 PM
☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆★ hazel ★☆

Ok so today was National Band Competition...
TKGS was before us, and it was deja vu all over again. Like SYF last year. The exact same thing, the exact same place, the exact same spot in the foyer. The only different things were that it was a different time and day, and naturally was not SYF, of course.

I sat with Minyi on the bus lol. There and back, and seriously, I never have anything to say to her. Coz she doesn't respond enthu-ly enough :p We did, however, have a very engaging discussion with the rest of BETCH on the way back from NBC about Ernie's imminent divorce from Aliza to marry Minyi. Which, of course, made Minyi the playboy, since she very clearly told me the other day that Sussan was hers. The thought is rather amusing.

Or at least, it was, until we realized Ms Tan was sitting in front of us :p Haha, the way we were carrying on about it...

And when we got back to the band room us BETCH stood together (one of the rare occasions where Minyi actually stood with us) and we talked and laughed and got really high.

Minyi/ Huijun said she asked Zhengning what shirt Mr Oura wore (after band prac ytd) and Zhengning said a white shirt.

I totally couldn't remember it either until they started talking about his X-Ray. THEN OHHHH PURPLE MAROON SHIRT. Then Huijun started talking about how nice his jeans were, which promptly started my shrieking again. Lol.

I can't stand how Minyi is never so enthusiastic x.x I mean, I talk to her on MSN just fine, just that face to face we can never find anything to talk about. Things are so weird.

You know what, I have to stop mentioning her.

We got GWH!!! FOR NBC! I could hardly believe it, and this means we have the potential to do way, WAY better. I hope this will give me the motivation to buck up on my playing. I still sound pretty terrible, though I hope my one player part after the singing (albeit only long notes) was fine... I thought I sounded okay. For once.

Hazel

9:06 PM
☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆♥══♥☆★ hazel ★☆